Ali was very beautiful, which goes without saying, but I want to say it, so I did, :D. The ceremony was lovely. There were a couple of not-perfect moments, but they were humourous and so were good moments anyway, like when the flowergirls decided it would be a good idea to pick up the petals on the floor and throw them at Matt and Ali as they were signing the register. Funny! I gave a Bible reading from 1 John 4 successfully. I didn't stumble and I'm quite sure I enunciated properly. I wore my peach/pink dress that I received for Christmas oh-so-many years ago. I think I've grown into it well. By that I mean, I have more confidence wearing it. yay!
After the ceremony, Tom and I bought ice-cream, then went to Anna's house to hang with a few people and eat some ice-cream/dinner before going to the reception. I changed into my Wayne Cooper dress and off we went.The reception was at the Lake Karrinyup Country Club, a very prestigeous location that wasn't heavily air-conditioned, so it was still rather warm in there.
There were speeches; Matt gave a very heart-felt one dedicated to Ali and she was going to respond, but I think she felt a bit over-whelmed by the once Matt gave that she decided not to (and if any other girl were in her position, I think they would do the same). Then there was the Bridal Waltz; Tom gallantly led me out for a short dance near the end when everyone else was invited to dance. Then good dancing music started up and I danced ceroc with various guys for the rest of the evening. Wrap around dresses are NOT to be worn when dancing ceroc and I was very very glad for my boxer shorts that I wisely wore underneath. I had to break out the safety pins at some point and pin my dress down.
Nic Markham and I danced a very dramatic dance that I think shall stay with me for a long time. We danced to the Roxanne Tango off the Moulin Rogue soundtrack. VERY dramatic! So much fun dancing with Nic! Lots of dramatic twirling and pausing in between twirls. :D :D
However, since the wedding, I've experienced many mixed feelings. On one hand, it's helped me to re-understand the importance of marriage, the significance and sanctity of it. I don't think I want to get into it right now at all! I'm enjoying being single and until the wedding, I didn't give it terribly much thought. But in the past 12hrs, all these doubts have been plaguing my head. At some point in time, I do want to be married and experience that kind of love that Matt has for Ali. After the ceremony, I was reflecting with Tom at how I felt very close to God during the service; how I'm united to God in a way that's even closer than Matt and Ali. I felt God moving in me during the service and I feel very blessed for it. After the reception though, I guess I've been feeling a little depressed. This dichotomy within me of both wanting and not wanting marriage now is making me very confused. I've prayed, which has given me some peace, but I think I still need more prayer.
This Sunday was my last at Unichurch. Rory did a short interview with me up the front to give me a proper farewell and send off. It was rather nice. I'm looking forward to being able to put more energy into the two smaller churches I'm a part of, because they need me more and there's more room for me to be a part of them. Also, I don't feel quite so overwhelmed going there because there's less people. :D Leaving tonight though, was nice. Some people said some very nice things to me that encouraged me to be real to the people I'm going to: which was what I intended to do anyway, but encouraging none the less! :D It's kinda sad that it took leaving to get to know some a little better. :P
That is all I think. Writing all this out has been therapeutic and I'm glad for that. I feel even more at peace having gotten some of these confusing thoughts out of me. Thank you for reading. :D
There are photos of the wedding here (I took these) and here (I didn't take these, but they're super nicer than mine)