December 10th, 2004


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oh Lord God

What is happening to me!?

I feel all alone in a massive ocean. I know that you are with me, and that you are all I need, but I feel that everyone else has left me.

I want to be needed and loved by my friends, but I don't feel that way at all. Please be all that I need. Please comfort me and strengthen me. Please let my heart rejoice in you. Please let me find my place in you, to be defined by my relationship with you, instead of my friends. Please cast out of my mind, all things that make me sad and weary. Please help me to be far more Godly.

I feel like I have taken steps backwards in my attempts to calm and level my emotions. Please help me not to go backwards any further. Please be with me Father. Please lend me your strength. To know that I am not my friends. I am me, your own Child whom you love without bias.

Please help me to discapline myself. Please Father, let your role in my life be increased as I try to change myself, instead of thinking about how I want to change everyone else.

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    gotten better as I have prayed