March 10th, 2008

willow sad


So I totally studied this weekend and I was feeling super confident about the Japanese test I had today. Seriously, looking throug the test, I knew I could do it all if I had the opportunity. Except, for some DUMB INSANE reason, I STUPIDLY thought that my class today started at 10:30 instead of the usual 9:30. In fact, I completely forgot what time it really and usually started. So I ended up getting to class at 10:05 - which although is a stack better than 10:30, still meant that I only had 20mins to do the test instead of the full hour, and I NEEDED that full hour to complete it.

I did all that I can in my breathless state, having ran from my car to class, but I still only completed about 1/4 - 1/3 of it. Gah! I just feel, so stupid and dumb. I was so looking forward to doing well and now I want to die! I know that I could have done well too! I was talking to some of my classmates afterwards and they said they did pretty badly, but I know that it wasn't that hard, I just didn't have time to do it!

This test is worth 10% too! *cries some more* I just... feel so helpless... especially knowing that I could have done really well with it and taken pride in it. I've never been late to class yet! This is the first time and what a time to be late!! I just rushed through and skipped all the bits that looked slightly harder in order to complete the bits I could do fastest, but it still wouldn't have been enough. I'm not even going to pass this test. I jsut want to tear it up!! *WAAAAAAAHH*