December 23rd, 2008

Buffy coz it's wrong

Here I am

I am so very tired of Christmas music. And this is not a gratuitous Christmas-is-about-Jesus post! This is a genuine, I am so very sick of Christmas music and the reasons happen to include Jesus!
Through the years
We all will be together,
If the fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself a merry little Christmas now.

If the fates allow? FATES?? What the hell does that even mean? In a CHRISTMAS song?

I was speaking to a girl at work who hates Christmas music too and she mentioned that there are never any songs for Easter - to which I then sung her a couple of church songs about Easter. Christ the Lord is Risen Today and There is a Green Hill Far Away. What terrific songs!

Today at work wasn't so very busy. Busy, but certainly not half as busy at this time last year! Methinks people are a bit afraid for their monies. But despite the not-so-busy-ness of work, I was sore and achy all day. My feet, legs, back, strange pain just under my ribs that I called Mum about because it made me nervous but turned out to be nothing because it went away a bit later. I had plenty of sleep last night but woke up tired still. But I managed to get through the day! Hurrah! That was my goal. I also stayed in good spirits for most of it.

Been praying a lot more than usual recently. This is a good thing. It harks back to my old desire from back in the day of wanting to be a prayer warrior. Maybe there is still hope for that desire to bear fruit. :) :P


I've had many many questions recently about the merits of blogging. I seem to have a pre-recorded spiel of some sort that I rattle off when people ask me, but are they my real reasons?

Examining myself it seems to be a need for self expression. But why publicly on the internet? I can do that in my paper diary.
I have a desire for people to know me, but people already do.
A desire to have my words heard - something that has come around to bite me in the butt on more than one occasion.

It started because friends also had livejournals and it was a very good way to keep up to date and in contact with friends. But doesn't facebook now do that in a better way, in that I don't have as many negative ramifications and more friends are on it?

And am I really living up to my spiel? Josh has been reading through these archives - a task that I've felt a bit nervous about, as I simultaneously want to cover up my past and don't want to hide anything from him. It's made me think that my spiel is incorrect. Most of my posts are about trivial things, not so much about Christian things. I don't do that many posts about larger, important issues as I'd like.

And besides, with the rise of facebook and living in Perth for the last 5 years; with the recognisation that friendships come and go, is it really so necessary to have one? Is my desire for self expression, to be known and to be heard really worth all the negative portrayals of myself? Really worth all the crap that I post on here that doesn't have anything to do with my loftier spiel?

Why do you, my fellow bloggers, blog? And for those who aren't bloggers themselves, is it worth me continuing in the fashion I have? Should I stop altogether, or cut back a little?
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