It's amazing sometimes... Something that happens or is said now, can be remembered and taken in. It affects the future. I think I haven't seen many effects of anything I do or say for a while, so I'm forgetting that they do have an effect. It feels good to know that somehow, in even the smallest ways, in the most insignificant act, I can make a big difference. Like praying for Mr Westbrook, or encouraging a friend, when I think that it'll make the least difference. It's kinda overwhelming. But I feel in awe that God has it in control, and I can be of some use. A stuff up like me can make a small difference! How awesome is that!
I just feel so good right now.
I think... I've talked it over with Dad, and I don't think I'll go to Europe in the middle of the year. I really want to go. But I'll be streching myself a bit thin trying to earn the money to go. Besides, when I eventually graduate from uni, I'll get a job, and then I'll get this massive holiday over Christmas and money from having a proper job, to go overseas with. It'll just be easier that way. I think it's wiser that I don't go. Besides, I want to go to Japan, and that'll be a trip that'll be satisfying a longer term goal of being a missionary in Japan. I really want to go with my friends. But... not having that experience, isn't such a big deal.
This has been a big decision, and I'm a little sad to be making it. But I feel good that I'm releaving some pressure on myself. Besides, I'll have more money available to me for miscellaneous spending. w00t(!) lol and also a bunch of 21st this year. I swear, every weekend is going to be one!